Dear God,
If I were Roman Catholic I would go to Confession and apologize for my sins - for ditching religious school which was stupid — (the religious school and not the ditching of it) and for not getting confirmed (a ceremony making absolutely no sense whatsoever) but mostly for the sin of not even trying to believe in You. ..
I am trying so hard to believe in You now, as unbelievable as You seem to be.
But You are my only hope now for getting out of this life.
And getting out of this life is what I want more than anything!
I wake up early each morning — with the pain occasioned by the unbelievable stupidity of the doctors who could not even keep track of their own so-called expertise!
Especially that total jerk doctor Timothy Flood who told me that my retina condition was because I was on Prolia!
That FLOOD of misinformation from a so-called specialist physician who couldn’t even couldn’t even get that great big medical word “osteoporosis” out of his stinking little mouth is totally deserving of the painful Fires of Hell just for that!
But now there is nothing to do about that pain those dumb words left me with!
And nothing short of death to get me out of the rotten situation I am in now.
They call this “Luxury Senior Living.” Well — You can give that “luxury” to someone else.
I just want out of here, and death — sweet death — would be the only way.
Please God, even though I’m Jewish (and haven’t been such a great Jew either) what will it take for You to stop punishing me? Haven’t I paid enough? You know where to find me. Please get me out of here!
Sincerely —
Joan
4/17/2024
